I don’t know

I don’t know what I don’t know yet.

Recently, I was road tripping with my daughter and she wanted to listen to the Frozen soundtracks over and over again.  I’m the type of person who listens to every little word of songs, so I especially enjoyed Olaf’s “When I Am Older.”

The song states,

“This will all make sense when I’m older. 

Someday I will see that this makes sense.

One day while I am old and wise,

I’ll think back and realize,

These were all completely normal events!”

This song makes me laugh SO hard.  Because it seems it echoes a sentiment I know so well – waiting to get older so things actually make sense.

Yet here I am…. I have a pretty decent resume in life experience now (though still lots to go), and if anything, I’m more confused than ever!  Maybe also, though, I’m more willing than ever to be in confusion.

If you’re in a state of confusion, that means you’ve just walked right outside your comfort zone.  You’re lost and unable to get a grasp on things because you’re in new territory.  This is ok.  This is good.  This is growth.

Admitting that I don’t know what I don’t know yet can help me to accept where I’m at and to let things unfold at a more organic pace.  There’s no need to beat myself up or try to muscle things into place.  I don’t know what I don’t know yet.  Perhaps there’s something better waiting just around the bend and I may one day have some idea as to why things played out the way they did.

3 Comments On “I don’t know”

  1. That was so very well stated and oh, so true.

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  2. The following poem has been a life saver for me – please feel free to substitute God with what or whomever means something to you.

    God, grant me the serenity to

    Stop beating myself up for not

    Doing things perfectly,

    The courage to forgive myself

    Because I’m working on doing better,

    And the wisdom to know

    That You already love me

    Just the way I am.

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  3. i really like this prayer … i’m not an alcoholic but do have chronic PTSD (diagnosed)and this prayer really fits!
    thank you so much!

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